Roses&Snails

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     I feel like ultimately the breakup with Her happened because we couldn't talk about our fallout like adults. She hustled, bought a car and believed that it would solve our distance problem? I understood her 100%, but i'm not sure she understood me.  We could have fixed it... but she avoided the talk when I saw her. She also gave me rude vibes while because she was on the phone with some other friends. I say it without feeling an ounce of jealousy but in all honesty, we needed to talk about the issue and she completely disregarded it. She basically ignored me after inviting me out...

Maybe, I may be wrong, but we hadn't spoken about anything in months and well, without that communication, there was no way to mend our friendship. After all we went through. I see the unresolved misunderstandings. I saw them then. If she was only capable of seeing my point of view. Unfortunately, her insecurities ruined what could have been salvaged. Who knows.  

I can't begin to explain the type of friend I am because in all honesty, many have said I am a shitty one. I don't text everyday, I don't leave my house because it irks me to know I had it all... And lost it... My car, my job. If only they felt what is in my heart. If they saw how genuine my love is for them they would never question their spot in my life. All of the friends that have left me for not being consistent. And I won't apologize. Because my mental health is much more important than proving anything to anyone. Call it pride or whatever, but I am my first priority.

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